My biggest drive in life is to help people. I mean, of course almost everyone says this, but for me it's kind of this weird compulsion that I don't know how to stop no matter how hard I try. I'm the person who instinctively reaches down when someone drops a pencil and then immediately bumps head with the person who dropped it, or who insists on shoving unwanted problem-solving down the throat of a poor friend who just wanted sympathy.
So when I found out I was a Death and Chaos witch, I took a deep breath, scrunched up my face, and asked myself, "Okay, so how can I use this to make people's lives better?"
And you know what, it's not as hard as some Death or Chaos witches make it out to be.
Take Death. Sure, you can heal the body of cancer; but you can also kill the cancer—magickal chemotherapy, ftw! The crops are blighted? Don't just fight it, annihilate it! Surgeries are a breeze, because you automatically get a sterile environment.
And Death isn't just about literal dying; it's also about endings. Want to say goodbye to a horrible ex? Death—in the figurative sense—creates an end to the relationship so both ex-lovers can move on from each other. (Just make sure you specify no actual death when casting the spell!)
Chaos isn't just disorder; it's the myriad realms of all possibilities. It allows me to look across the endless sea of outcomes and navigate to something different, instead of the same old way of doing things.
If you're always meeting the same kind of horrible romantic partners, the perfect love attraction spell needs a bit of Chaos behind it. Or let's say you need a spell that helps you overcome writer's block or creative stagnation, well then Chaos is what you need.
And the two put together: a beautiful recipe for change and growth in a new direction. And that's what I want to do in my new villages, to understand all the things that are creating pain points in people's lives, and then help them transform that into something better.
I mean, some people don't like change—even if their current situation is actively causing harm—and that's sort-of understandable. It's hard to say goodbye to an old life and do something new, and the transition period is almost always unstable even for the best of us. But with optimism and dedication, I'm sure I can help people understand why change is a good thing, and to help them find what makes them truly happy.
And well...one other thing about me...
I work with demons.
It's not what you think! Honestly, I tried working with angels back when I first got my specializations, and the angels really don't want me. They always choose the socially well-adjusted "love and light" types, and it's hard to convince them that a Death and Chaos witch can be both upbeat and pro-social.
And I was really surprised when I started working with demons. Most of them are completely nice, if you don't bind them to your will, and if you ask for things politely and try to find deals that are mutually beneficial for the both of you. If you work with a demon long enough, they may even pop round for tea from time-to-time without you needing to summon them, and fix your clogged sink for free while they're there.
Most demons actually want to help, but unlike angels, they seem to have a much better grasp of the way the world really works—which, let's face it, isn't all "love and light", and they don't expect you to watch people suffering and then tell them to just "Chin-up and look on the bright side".
There are the demons who are @55holes, of course. They promise wealth and fame and power...blah, blah. But of course they're just going to tell you what you want to hear and then turn on you the first instant they can. I honestly don't understand why most demon-oriented witches work with those jerks.
But demons exist for the same reason that angels exist: they're magickal guides that help us shape the outcome of our magick. It's just that demons are a lot more open to working with the full spectrum of what it means to be human, in a way that angels aren't. They can help you direct your pain, frustration, and anger towards constructive ends, instead of telling you to push it all down and think happy thoughts, the way the angels do.
Anyhow, tomorrow is my first day in Cleaverton. I can't wait to see where I'm going to live and get settled in!